28th April 94'
Fifteen.
Musician.
Hate me, PLEASE LEAVE. •
Magic Y I should start praying again.
Talk about lazy. :/
Anyway, I think I'm going back to magic again! I'm going to do tricks, illusions, mind reading. (:
This ought to be fun man. I miss doing magic.
Any of my primary school friends remember me showing you tricks? x]
Magic , here I come!
For Her. Y I wonder how you're doing there
Here, I'm shackled to missing you
Is this the feeling of a tortureous separation?
It hurts to be living apart.
My heart feels like its left with you
Though you're a thousand miles away
A second feels like a year's length now that you're gone,
There's nothing that I could do.
Whenever I miss you, I'll say out your name
With the hope that you'll appear with me
Whenever I miss you, I'll dream of you again,
And that would be my cure.
Because I miss you so.
It has crossed my mind to just let go
And stop seaching cause you're not here
But this is part of my sacrifice
To when I wasn't there for you
Living here is a huge difference
And I know I'd be a million times better off
if I were there with you.
I can't wait for my time to return
But until then,
There's nothing that I could do.
Whenever I miss you, I'll say out your name
With the hope that you'll appear with me
Whenever I miss you, I'll dream of you again,
And that would be my cure.
Because I miss you so.
That's for her.
I love you so much.
How much it hurs to look in the mirror, because I know it reminds me of you. You can't imagine the pain, really, you can't.
Haters Y You know,
When you find out that people hate you, most of the time it'd crush your heart - and you'd start thinking of all the different reasons why they do. When you get to surface those 'reasons', you'd start regretting that you ever did those things. You'd wish you were never that person, and that you could take them all back.
I felt that way 4 days ago.
A friend of mine told me about my haters. And quite frankly, I died. As in, I cracked up my brain so much about how I could make those people (or particular person) change their minds about me. To - in a way - apologise to them. What I could do, to make things right. To get rid of haters.
But then again, everyone has haters.
You can be the most popular person in school, or the quietest person in class, or simply the most likeable being on earth. Yet, there will always be people who has something against you. Even the nicest people has haters - regardless of the reasons as to why those people hate them - it still means they have people who dislike them. Or what they do. You could try to change their minds - make them see another part of you - or pretending to be the complete opposite of how they view you.
Doing any of that, means you have to change something about yourself. It means you forcefully change a part of you. Even if what you're changing is a bad character, it's still changing. What if you were meant to be that way? We are all meant to be the way that we are now. Whatever that has to change will change naturally, and when its ready. If we forcefully change something, or even plan to do it, we're changing a part of us that is meant to be. I once heard someone say this - "God made us perfect."
Doesn't that mean, WE are who WE are? Whatever negative personality that we may have, are all part of us. Imagine only having good qualities and banishing bad ones. Wouldn't that be weird? Like - yin and yang. Has to be equal right?
I just wanted to say this.
When you hate someone - its quite obvious that the things you think of when he/she comes to your mind, are his/her bad qualities. I said earlier in the post that there has to be a balance in the good and bad of a person. So while you 'hate' someone, all you ever think about are the ugly points. After all, I think everyone would agree that bad things are easier to point out. You'd have to really focus to find someone's good quality. And so, why not focus? Try finding someone's positive personality. You know how they say - you can never truely know someone unless you grow close to them? Its the same thing. People see each other through the way each individual present themselves. Sometimes, people have bad presentation skills. But when you get to know these people - you'd be surprised that they possess rare qualities. One out of ten would own such character. All of us owns an extrodinary personality - besides the obvious and common rotten character - all of us are good people.
If you know about someone who hates you
Think about this.
Do you think, that the particular person has got no haters on their part? They too, have haters. They, like all of us, are people too. They have bad qualities like we do. Talking behind your back, for one, is a bad quality. You are no worse than they are. Yin and yang!
And if you cant seem to find anyone who hates them, then think of this next.
Out of 10 people who hate you, there MUST be one who loves you more than anything. One person who sees the real you. For me, I just tell myself that not everyone hates me, and I have friends who'd stand by me. Knowing that, its enough to ignore that one hater. Or rather, those haters.
The best thing - my family
The next best thing - my friends.
And not those friends who come and go.
Its those friends who stay.
I may have haters, but I have my family and my friends to go along with it.
Thats all, bye(:
Drum Till I Hurt - Stupidity Case. Y OKAY.
I know I said I'm going to post Ko's Farewell's pictures, and the cake making day pictures. But like, too many la. So I'll post when I'm freeee. :] Which is.. probably in the next blog entry. Heh.
SO.
I just felt like posting this today. Er, on Tuesday I think, we had band. I took the keys Mrs. Chng. Supposed to take it from Mr. Tan, but I called Mrs. Quek, and instead asked for Mrs. Chng when I called Mrs. Quek. -.- Does that make sense? I have nooooo idea why I called Mrs. Quek but asked for Mrs. Chng. -.- -.- -.- When I told Mrs. Quek this, she gave me the diaooooo face. HAHAH. I am officially a weirdo, lol , sorry Cher!
BUT ANYWAY.
I got the keys, so I went to the band room early. Like, at 10:30am? Yeah. Band on that day supposed to start at 1:30pm. So... I was 3hours early. :]
For what? I jammed! As in, practised drums before the band started to gather. I played and played, and I tried to play difficult songs
TILL. UNTILL. UNTILL.
I KEPT KNOCKING MY LEFT HAND WITH THE DRUMSTICK I HELD IN MY RIGHT HAND. AT THE SAME SPOT. PAINFULL. CRAZY PAINFUL.
I stupid la, not very good still dare try difficult songs. -.- Idiot. haha.
I shall be less ambitious next time and know myself.
As in, that I'm no good. T.T
Lousy la, wish I could play like Khairul.
Pictures to prove my stupidity.
Thats all, bye!
Teacher's Day Video Y Okay, blog skin changed, song changed.
Things changed. -.-
Will finish up the remaining details next time, now i'm just lazy.
Anyway, just thought I should share the Teacher's Day performance video.
Haha, we sucked like hell.
BUT we had fun.
Its a joy to work with those Sec 2 boys.
I was on the drums! :D
I'm quite happy with the music, Aikel and Aridz played really well. The singing... Well. Danish and Farid first time la~ haha. So excuse them. HAHA.
This was the lower secondary performance. The crowd was not bad, Yay lower sec (:
The recording sucks, there wasn't sound check, mixers, nothing. So the sound projected to the hall was pathetic. AND MY DRUM SOLOS COULDN'T BE HEARD. Like. HELLO?! haha. x]
BUT ITS OKAY LA , IT WAS GREAT !
Got good comments on youtube. :D
And besides, it was all in the name of fun. So good or not, ear hurting as hell, we don't really care because we had the time of our lives on stage on that day.
If it serves as a good laugh to you, I'd take it as a compliment haha, because I laugh too when I think about how brave we were to go up there even though... well. Enough said.
SO turn off the blog's background music, and hit the play button on the video! (:
Enjoy!
Check Yes Juliet Cover (stage) - Reverse Rapsody
(and invited guest, SherilAmilia? haha.)
Ko's Farewell Story (: Y
I am constantly trying to find the will to study.
Whats that word?
The one that means you drag stuff.
Oh yeah, procrastinate.
I'm a cronic procrastinator.
I have two days to the Amath re-test.
And though everyone tells me that they don't do their either, I don't feel any different. I mean, come on. How does saying, "Don't worry, I also never do" helps? I'm sorry if by saying this I'm directly pointing to some of you, but its true ain't it. Just because people don't do it as well won't make anything better. It just means they're just as lazy as you are. As careless.
Sigh.
Anyway today, had a gathering for Ko. He's going back to Korea. ): So to celebrate his farewell. Not in a bad way la~ Lol. So, we had fun I guess. Had several went-wrong-jokes and some bad-moods passing around. &&! the outing was supposed to be for my class alone, but it ended up that most of the classmates couldn't make it so we invited all the others from the different classes and a senior as well (Michelle) lol. WELL. At least we all had fun (I hope), we would all remember this day (for sure) and we had the joy of making a cake for a friend (goooood cake sommore x] ) .
Basically on Saturday me, Yizhen , Kim, Jieyi and Shirly made or rather, deco two cakes especially for Ko (credits to my mom as well) . They came to my house and we got it done. It turned out really nice! (: Then came Sunday, those who said they could attend backed off for reasons of their own, and so we had to re-plan the whole outing. BUT. Everything turned out extrodinary. Credits to Jieyi and Henderson for bringing the mats, Arshad for buying the utensils, the boys for bringing drinks, Amirah for bringing the delicious mee, and of course the gang who made the cake. :D Unbelievable initiative shown, haha. Oh and thanks Ko for being spotting for the day !
We took pictures, creamed people, played wacko, stuffed our tummys, made a fool at the children's playground, shouted, laughed, cried (seriously, haha) and well, everything else that I missed? lol.
I'm really glad I had fun. :]
It was an amazing day.
& Ko? I'm going to miss you, Silly Boy. ;]
Pictures for the 1) Cake-Making-Day
2) Ko's Farewell Party in the next post ! :p
EOY Pending Madness. Y Hello cruel world.
Tomorrow is Monday.
Tomorrow is the day I get my other EOY papers.
Tomorrow is the day.
I'm dead.
Well, not literally.
But dead enough.
