Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Missing 'something' Y
Something's missing.
I feel like my life has this huge hole, but I have no idea what. And no, its not a guy. I don't know what, but whatever 'it' is , its hurting me really badly.
I think I know how to explain this ... thing. Its like, I have something to shout, but what I'm shouting is just plain words without meaning. Like, "BLA BLA BLA"? Yeah.
Or , like when you feel like you have a lot of friends, like they all care and love you. But you still feel all alone ... Wait. Maybe thats it. I'm lonely.
Or maybe its got to do with the things I do. Like, how I always procastinate. Maybe, because of that, I feel like the time, (and the world) is moving too slowly. Like everything is made slow on purpose, so that the hurt I'm feeling now will last longer.
Or maybe, its the people who've left me. People who died, or people who just disregard their existance in my life, for someone else, or because of someone else. Or something.
Then again, it could be because I desperately need a hug. From a friend. Someone who know's how I feel, someone who feels this 'hurt'. Even if that person dont quite understand, I need that someone to just OUT OF NOWHERE hold my hand and say, "call whenever you like. I'm here."
Or maybe.
I'm just going crazy.
